Haiii , quick question, What's the thing that's currently driving you to stay alive? do you have a reason or goal that needs you to stay alive rn or you're just winging it? Pls do me a kefo senpai {Write a paragraph and not some potato masher rp plz} in the thread plz. @chill No, I am not asking some questions that I didn't have answer to after 23 years of life on this planet. @flocc ily @Noob haii, drop an 'Idiot' in the thread. @Hailey,@wyatt ily2 @wesday.... nothing, just wanna irritate you by mentioning your name. Baii.
Lots of menial things. Dogs, family, friends, my boyfriend, mozzarella sticks, pasta, the feeling of getting into bed after a long day, hot showers, bread, bratwurst, spite, et cetera.
Because I'm too spiteful and stubborn not to be. Because for now the scales still tip to overall better than worse. Because the pain so far isn't stronger than I've been able to be. Because for now I still have enough hope in the potential to have a few tomorrows ahead of me that will be amazing enough to struggle through the exhaustion of today.
Currently tryna add more things to the list.. I saw someone in campus yesterday saying that they didn't have the courage to live, only to survive... This reminded me of when I was in high school and I wanted to ask this girl out... I didn't have the "courage" to do it until I told myself that I had to do it l, and that it was my duty... By elevating certain actions and things in our lives to see them as necessities, I think everyone becomes more motivated to do them. So currently I'm making catching up with friends at regular intervals that duty, along with working out daily and going for walks, taking a photo, and then drawing the photo. Also other more menial house chores... I've pretty much always just seen them as choices, as chores and as extra, and I didn't really care enough to just do them, but if I can see them as part of surviving and not part of "living", I'll better be more motivated to do them. Perhaps they'll just become habit too, which will be good. Anyway I don't really have a current reason to live. My optimism for the future is a big one. I have aspirations for my future and I feel on track for all of them. Perhaps if I get a hitch in those aspirations, things might get rocky but I still have family, friends, and a love interest to support me. Hopefully I eventually get a dog to support me too. Politics and the news cycle keeps me engaged too. I don't wanna stop hearing about UKIP and Trump and all the other big ticket news items. The world's pretty dang interesting. Keeping up with the forums community and keeping the best f2p pure showcase on pimd are nice too Nature and beauty are cool too. I like to see new memes and other forms of visual art. I'm not too much of a music guy but I love my playlists. There are some dishes that I want to try and make in the future, and a bucket list of books to read and acitivities to do. More than I can probably do in a lifetime at my current rate.
Because at 14,when I wanted to kill myself I was too scared to do it. Since than I lived a boring life that I hate. There's no real joy in my life at the moment and I have nonidea why I am alive but I haven't done anything about it. My life is passing by and I just feel empty on the inside.
Jk kinda ^ but For real though, I’ve nearly died before twice by almost drowning and then being smothered. I have a jacked up spine and heart so I wouldn’t say I’m “happy” with life but I am content with it. Imo I’m alive because I’d never do anything to myself to change that. If I die, I die. If not then that’s fine too. Despite how blunt/stubborn I am and may come off rudely I am very friendly and try bringing happiness to others which in turn makes me happy. So I’d say that’s purely the whole reason I’m alive and what keeps me living
Honestly I tried to take my life two times when I was 14. Both times have failed. It's been 11 years since and I'm not in that dark point in my life no more. My life is so much brighter.
My mam, tbh. If she wasn't still alive, I would've been ded from teenage hormones. I donut want the money my parents spent on me to go to waste. Like my mam said once in a car ride, "You are an investment." and I donut wanna be a failed investment.
My cat and husband. Before him it was just my cat, she always makes me happy whenever I’m down but now with my husband around, I feel stronger.
Idk my head just sayd I dont wanna be dead yet. But even when my head didnt know the most I ever done was stab the fưck outa my arm n leg so idk
My dog is the reason I am still alive. If I killed myself, she wouldn't have anyone to take care of her and know all of her little neurocies, likes and dislikes. Having a dog is a big responsibility.