The person you are today I feel like without certain events in our lives, we wouldn't be the same people we are today. For example, my grandfather's passing. I realized that time is precious. I avoided seeing him until it was too late. I realized that no one is going to be here forever & you should cherish each moment with them. Ask the people you care about questions. LISTEN to them. Let them vent. Let them cry. Another event would be my first breakup. That shít hits harder than you think it would. I learned to never let your gourd down to anyone early on. Communication & trust are key. So. Who/What made you who you are today?
My bestfriend Nelly. Before she passed away from Lupus in 2015, she taught me to live like its your last day. Stop caring about what others are thinking of you or what they might say. What breaks you can also make you stronger. She lived her last days just like that. Not being afraid to laugh and laugh loudly at that! She spoke to everyone, even those she didn't know because she believed that no matter how much she was going through, somewhere, somebody else was going through something worst. All in all, Nelly taught me to be a better person so I can pass it on to others. Rest In Heaven Nelly. Love you so much, always have, always will.
All of the funerals that were a reminder of how short life is, and all of the weddings, childbirths, and graduations that were a reminder that life goes on and that hope still exists.
Does it make sense to say that I don’t even know who I am half the time? I have like five different personalities depending on which group of people I’m around. At home? Almost silent, barely ever hyper. Out in public? Completely quiet and reserved. Out with friends? Probably screaming and laughing. Out with family? Hyper but also anxiously quiet. This is kind of sad but tbh I think what made me into who I am is all the trauma from my past.??♀️