A kiss... She told me she kissed him, but what does that mean? I wasn't there, I don't know what happened, all I know is that she told me she kissed him. But what does this kiss mean, does this mean they are dating now? Does this mean nothing? I don't know. Literally on Saturday we were all hanging out, we had lunch and we saw a movie. I should have expected this between the two of them. I asked her the question "How are you and ??? doing" , and she told me " I don't really like him anymore" and while she was saying that I could tell that her new person of interest was the other person we were with. But, I didn't think much of it. After that, we were like "let's see a movie". So, we went to a movie theater, but the movie we wanted to see wasn't at that time. So, we decided to go to a different movie theater. On the way back to my car I said "y'all can go to your car, my car is just up the road". But they insisted on walking with me the rest of the way. So anyways, I get to the new movie theater and it seems like forever before the two of them finally get there. We get our tickets and we go to the room the movie is being showed in, and we watch the movie. Throughout the movie I would look over to my left and see the two of them, and I was feeling very conflicted, I was feeling sad on one hand because I really liked this girl, but she was getting really close to my friend, and on the other hand I wanted to be happy for my friend because well he was my friend. Ok movies over, and we walk outside the theater. The girl was like " we should go to that ice cream place over there", but I decided not to go, since it was getting dark and I felt like getting home. So, I say my goodbyes to them, expecting that after they got there ice cream they too would be going home. So, I get home and start playing video games. I was in a party with different friends, and then I see that the girl had joined the party, but the person who was talking was my friend and not her. Anyways those two ended up going to a party, and then she drove him home. I thought I was in the clear, and that everything was gonna be fine, and everyone was JUST friends. Next day comes, i go online and join a party that the girl is in and we talk about stuff. And then she says " I have a story to tell you", and the story was if you hadn't guess it, it was a story from the night before about how when she was taking him home, literally right before he was about to walk into his house, she kissed him. Of course I wouldn't tell her how I felt about that, so I said " I knew it was going to happen sooner or later". This girl is pretty, great personality, and on top of that, she plays video games. To be honest I thought she was the girl of my dreams, but now I realize that I don't deserve someone as good as her. I don't deserve someone like her because I can't even be happy for her and my friend, my friend that I have legit known for almost my entire life. -Mars-Pi-
TL;DR Friend of many years and my crush are now a thing, and I don't know whether to be happy or sad.
I would say start aknowledging yourself and prioritize yourself for a while. You may feel you lost the perfect once meant to you, but sooner or later and I hope sooner you will realize you are better than what you were before and definitely deserve a lot better now. Keep evolving, keep learning, keep growing, everything thing good or bad teaches us something. The wise heeds from the past and the rest mourn on the act.