Nah I think the song Anaconda by Miss Minaj will clear everything up. I mean that sing has such a deeper meaning, ya know. You gotta really listen to her soothing words to understand.
I'm sorry you feel that way. Try calling up some friends and get out of the house. Or do a hobby that you really enjoy (reading, writing, exercising, etc). I like going for runs and exercising when I'm feeling down. Exercise increases endorphins in the brain, this making you feel a high of happiness. Good luck OP.
U know what makes me sad. When I'm high as jesus and someone ate my pizza. I get so sad I cry. Over pizza. Like u don't understand food is life fr. N when u have food when u have the munchies...smh..