See there's moments in your life where everything just seems to fall apart. Where in a brief moment your world crumbles. Because the moment before everything seemed ok, you have a baby on the way, you're back to work, and your families are getting along. And than suddenly, like in a snap of the fingers poof the world collapses. The babies still on the way, you're still working, but you're fighting with the family. Things from your entire life seem to come back from the past and create untold turmoil. You say things to your sister, things you may not mean. But than she says things back to you, things you couldn't imagine being said. She fights and argues with your babies mother, while you try and sort it out. Yet you can't because no matter what you do it goes bing bang boom right in your face. Where instead of one side being angry with you, somehow you get both angry. Both fill with resentment. Than you look and your fighting with your mother over drama you've tried to explain over and over again. The reasons you don't do the things she may want, you know that whole I'm trying to start a family thing just don't cut it. It's why don't you call? Why don't you stop by? Things you can't really give an answer to, because all in all you try. You try in your head to figure out a way, but your mind let's go each and every day. The thoughts flow freely and at a speed you can't control. The mind doesn't work like you'd like it to and you wish you could just let it all go. I'm in a funk right now, and needed to get it out. Not sure what's going to be said, don't really care. Just had a weight in my heart and on my head that I needed to let out.
You just gotta look at the bright side. There is always a bright side and things happen for a reason. Stay positive and good luck!
I hope the baby brings you all together. It will need as much love as it can possibly get, and you should want for him or her to have all the love possible. Ive seen it happen. Good luck though
I've been told I'm deep because I said candy is like shooting stars and old people. •.• they are there then gone in an instant.....at least that's how candy is for me.? I love eating candy...
Things always work out! And maybe this has been said way too much but whatever happens there is a reason behind it and you won't see it today but you will one day and you'll be fine ? just keep going
Thanks everyone, I was going through a lot last night and just needed an outlet to vent. I haven't written in years so I took the moment and just wrote what was going on in my head.
Dude I was in your shoes about 4 years ago. Know what I did? I said to hell with drama. Have not spoken to our seen my mother father step father and 2 younger brothers for 4 years and guess what, I'm not on meds any more. Sometimes it's better to just let them go. Doesn't have to be permanent, just say you are to stressed to deal with their drama because you have your own life to get in order. You need space to get your own family set and ready for that bambino! I'm pretty certain that if my family was still in my life I would be divorced, jobless or flipping burgers or cleaning crappers, and miserable. That's my two cents. I wish you the best.