Then you don't understand the reason people fight, people fight to protect themselves, not to use over-excessive force. For self defence an defence of the weak
You're still a little boy at 19. Age doesn't matter really. When you have a steady job, your own house, your own car and you pay your own bills, then you're a man.
Lady, how about pretending to be a mma fighter and marine, and then fuck up your whole story by telling people?
There's no hope. Honestly the best thing for you is to uninstall pimd because your reputation is already trashed.