my story

Hi, I am gonna tell you my story. Ok, firstly I guess I should tell you everything. Starting with my problems medically, I have autism, cmv, a right ear hearing loss, and a problem with my right eye that causes headaches outside. Now that you know that I should also share the people in my life, even if they aren't really the greatest people.
1. My mom (because even though she might be rude and I might hate her, she still payed to save my life when I was born)
2. My dad (because he had more involvement in my life when I was younger)
3. My best friend that is a girl (because why not, she was the only person that was my first best friend)
4. My second friend (because she was another part of my life)
5. My third friend (because she was nice to me)
6. My older sister (even though I hate her)
7. My older brother (even though he hurts me)
8. My first younger sister (because we sometimes get along)
9. My second younger sister (because she gets along with me sometimes too)
10. My youngest sister (because she is adorable)
11. My autistic friend (because he was a fun friend too)
12. A Cherokee friend (because if I'm naming friends why not list the last friend if you hate him)

Ok, now you know my list of people. The story begins.

I'm not sure how long it's been but I do know that I lived in my old house for a long time. Before I was able to even interpret what was going on, I wasn't sure. I remember asking my mom every day if I could go to school, but there was a time jump after I asked her, so I assumed it was a no. I'm not sure if I asked her every day, but I'm pretty sure I asked her a lot and she said no every time.

Most of my life was skipped and I don't even know how I became friends with the girl I became friends with. I was about 6 or 7 when I was her friend. I forgot what her hair color was but if my image is right, she had orange or red hair. Either way, we had a lot of fun, we would play spy kids and I would pretty much follow with what she does. And eventually I went to her house and I watched her play video games, like Nintendo 64 games. She played Pokemon rumble and legend of Zelda ocarina of time. Eventually I became a gamer myself and after some time she told me she had to leave.

I missed her when she left, and usually if I saw some mist, I would write her name in it. My older brother and sister would tease me about her, calling her a blue string. I would always tell them that she isn't a blue string.

After that I met another girl, she was a bit strange but she was also nice. I enjoyed being with her, and I also was happy when I was able to see her. One day, it was a Friday, but anyways, she decided that she would go into an alley, I followed her and tried to get her back, but she told me it was ok and that we wouldn't be in trouble. We eventually reached a place and it had koi fish, a trailer, and no gate. We played around in there then watched the fish move around.

After some time we were found by a guy and he told us to go to school so we walked towards school. My older brother found us in the alley and took us to the school and that is where we saw my mom and that girls mom. My mom and hers was crying and when we saw them I thought that we did something bad. We drove home in silence and then when we got home I was going to do something but my mom demanded me to sit so I did. After a little bit of silence she started freaking on me, I got scared and began to cry because she never freaked out at me that much.

After that I was sent to my room but I don't remember leaving the couch because time skipped. Next thing I knew was that I was in my aunties house, and I was playing some games. After that we were sent to the park near her place. I enjoyed climbing so I climbed a tree, and eventually got stuck but I climbed out. I was told on because they were worried and I got stuck in the corner, I was the one who got in a lot of trouble. Once my cousin ran into the building and I shouted at him to get out of there and when my auntie got home, she put me in the corner for shouting.

After that I remember going to someone's place, they were really rude, they even let a toddler have a screwdriver. I thought it wasn't safe so I took the screwdriver from the toddler and I was thrown into the toddlers room as a punishment for doing that. It was horrible in the room so I tried to get free. I eventually gave up and fell asleep. After some time I woke up and I was sent to sit on the couch with my brother and sister. We waited forever for my mom to pick us up, and I was so glad to be out of there.

The next thing was when I met my friend, he was Autistic, but he was also fun to play with. We would play games like army, or something imaginative. I enjoyed being his friend. Then he had to move away, I didn't like playing outside anymore after that. I usually stayed inside unless my brother and sister were going to the park.

After that I met a Cherokee who was seriously having temper problems. His mom was nice though, and that was before she started playing on the xbox 360. But aside from that, I wasn't wanting to hurt him or be mean to him, but he would always get mad if I won, he would freak out at me and tell me that he wouldn't be my friend if I kept winning, so I stopped winning so he would be happy. We eventually began playing resident evil and he got a little nicer. After some time they had to move away and I was alone again. I became a video game player. I started to learn about the GameCube and I enjoyed playing sonic when we got it, I would always play it, but I would have trouble with playing as super sonic. I kept getting mad because I would lose as super sonic, but eventually I got used to it and beat the game without relying on my brother.

After that I was enrolled in a school and told about my being hard of hearing. I was told I had to wear a hearing aid so I did. People started asking me if I could hear them and lowering their voice. I didn't like it and I didn't want to tell people to go away because I thought it would be impudence to do that. In the end I transferred from school to school until I was at one that met my needs.

I became an idol for the DHH students and people liked me. I even had a friend from the all girls academy at that school. After some time I was transferred and I began learning at a high school. It was a mixed school of jr and sr. I didn't like wearing hearing aids or anything special so I went without it. I was too smart for the DHH class so they integrated me and I began having problems because they went too fast. My grades plummeted and I was dealing with someone who was acting friendly when he wasn't. He kept jabbing at my sides and making rude comments and calling me by my last name.

I eventually got annoyed and decided to request another name even if it wasn't legal, I eventually called myself Shadow, because I was still obsessed with Sonic at that time. Every time I ran, I would imagine I was like Sonic and too fast for me to use my arms. People began making fun of that and they started running around and nicknaming it an assault, but they used my last name so it would have my last name then assault.

Everyone teased me because I liked to be a Sonic fan. I eventually suppressed my sonic fandom and wanted to become silent, but whenever someone asked me something I would answer. Eventually I suppressed it and became an rper, it was fun being an rper and all I could do anything and be anything, but it got to my head and I got kicked from a lot of clubs and clans. I eventually understood I was kicked for god modding. I tried to leave a lot of times but I couldn't because I have many friends on these games, but no longer in KAW.

And now, I'm here, depressed and suicidal because of the fact that I was bullied by pretty much everyone. I used to cut but then I was disowned and had to choose between online and cutting. It was really stressful, and I only wanted to cut just to suppress the pain, even if temporary

 

I'm not, I'm sharing that I was diagnosed with it

 

I wanna become an actor, but I can't, I can't become one because I need science and math and all the mandatory classes, it sucks really

 

I can't do math, it's impossible because I'm so far behind thanks to integration and all

 

I don't know, I'm just told I need it

 

Well, autism ranges like a spectrum of lights, one can do one thing but not the other, I'm very lazy at writing, and suck at it