Why does it have to be hard, filled with drama? Why me? Am I selfish to think that our family shouldn't have any problems? We just wish that it happens to others and not to us, but sadly, it doesn't work like this. So much stress, so much sadness, so much everything! I wonder everynight if everything will be fine. I dream of having a normal life! That ain't happening.
The key to happiness is to let go of all selfish desires but since no one can do that Life is Pain and Pain is Life
I mean like.. SHIT! My entire life i'm wondering if I ever had one day that we had a normal family day! Like my brother told me... Do YOU even remember our parents counting 1 to 10 with you when you were young? Do YOU even remember whenever they were even supportive with you?! They're only critisizing everything! I've never seen ANY FUCKING SUPPORT from them!
I hope things will get better soon. But sometimes this helps when I'm sad angry and fustrated. Cry, write/type, cry more, talk (doesn't matter if you're talking to yourself). Then do something that makes u feel separated from all your problems (go on a walk, sleep, etc)
Its almost as if no matter how good of a life you have, eventually shit will fuck up sooner or later.
I know what it's like. In my family, we're pretty uptight and raised in a strict manner. While it's had its good side it has also had its disadvantages. My family has a hard time saying good things to each other. We're a classic dysfunctional family. And there's actually nothing much you can do but learn from it and do your part to help. I imagine how my parents were raised to better understand them. They were treated harshly as well. As for you, you just gotta make each day your own no matter how hard it is. The sooner you accept life isn't going to be one smooth ride, the better. Actually, the smoothness is just a bonus. It gets better that way because you learn to appreciate whatever small gesture or good thing that comes your way. And you experience pain so you can be the one who helps other people move past theirs as well. Don't worry, somehow it gets better.
Everyone goes through rough patches in life whether it's a bad childhood, poor relationship with your family or you have problems with a partner, it's not unique to you, me or anybody. I've gone through some hard times in my relationship for the last 4 years and I'm pretty sure that won't stop for another few but you find the positives and work with those. If you've had a bad time with your parents then aim to learn from it and make sure you aren't the same way as them. Keep your chin up.
I was blessed to have a wonderful mother and not so blessed to have a drug addicted, cheating father. He was far from perfect but people do change and he is a better man now than he was then. I hope this is the case with your parents. If not, let it go. If you truly have crappie parents then I'd accept them for who they are and live around it. Don't expect anything from them to spare yourself the disappointment. Sadly, it be like that sometimes. Live for you.
We all have our stories doesn't matter if one is worse than the other pain is still pain. You ask when they supported you.. they kept you. Clothed you and fed you. They taught you and your siblings what they could how they could. There's no manual that shows up and tells you how to be a parent and there sure as hell ain't one that says anything about you giving your life and ambitions up to raise a kid that's gonna go from adoring you and needing you every moment to a teen who's ashamed of you and gets embarrassed when you're around. I'm not saying that's you at all. I'm just saying it's hard from both perspectives. Appreciate that as you're growing up your parents are growing older. If you want answers or change you need to be the one to. A. Say something. B. Do something.