Possession. ------------- I don't like the feeling of possession, but I feel the need to have it. I feel the need to call something or someone mine, even if they aren't in a relationship with me. I feel the need to let people know that they're mine, and no one else can have them. I feel the need to constantly have someone in my possession . It's like an insanity I don't mind having, no, not at all. Almost like the feeling doesn't exist, but I know it's there. Well, sometimes it doesn't exist.. Sometimes when that person I want the most is hurt, or something bad is happening, possession travels straight through my heart like a giant dagger getting shoved in, and several other little knives finding their way into open spots around it. They make this feeling almost deadly. This also follows when their feelings aren't towards me. You see, possession is like a game I have to play. Hey, it's like being in a wave pool. You start out shallow, and then you slowly get into deeper water, risking getting swallowed by the waves. It happens a lot. But of course, so far, I've won, but I know my water getting deeper and I'm not going to last much longer like this. I spend every day sinking further and further without asking them to be mine, I'm spending every day drowning in my own pain. But it's all a game. In the end it will all be worth it if they say yes. All of it. The heart wounds, the hurt, and nights of crying for hours on end, the several cuts I've gained on my skin, it'll all be worth it. The blood I've lost, the bloodshed of victory. That would all change if they say no. If they say no, it'll be the biggest failure in my entire life. It'll be like wiping out at the Olympics, except I didn't train. It's a gamble for them to say yes. Like I've said, possession will cause you everything you have. In this case, possession will take everything I have and that will include... ... myself . ----------- For Melancholy, wherever you are lurking. Sorry I haven't posted in a while kiddos, Idle Promise was a discontinued project. I wrote this in a car, so sorry if I'm jumbled.
See, no need to worry! Human emotion is the purest form. Writing gives a great surface to be able to express~
I vent write on car drives, so this is what I got. I did think it was bad Shannon Thank you Melancholy, Brooke, Angel
Thank you! ^^ and if any older readers that read my nonsense stories, I'm in the process of writing a new story called "The Angel Theory" (no it isn't supernatural related ) but it takes a lot of research because I'm using actual dates Keep on the lookout my fellow merchants :33