Well after last night I been having a hard time trien to keep my head up... While talking to my mother I got very bad news about my family. I'm losing 2 people at the same time. I had to keep my tears hidden so my mother wouldn't be worried for me because she knows how I am when it comes to close people I know and love. I'm losing my aunts dad who is already in the hospital on his death bed right now with only few days left to live and my grandma I've known longer who's lived with me had a stroke and her brain cells are slowly dien so she won't have but maybe a month or less but I thank God each day for waking her up. I'm trien to go see my gma but my mom says I should get my house first bc that's more important, but to me my grandmother is. I live 6 hours away from them and I can't sleep not knowing what's going on. I saw my grandmas husband die few years back ago from a heart attack and seeing my mother hurt losing her dad makes me want to be there now as well because my mother will need me when the time comes for my grandmother. I have so much on my mind and don't know what I'm to do yet.
Aw omg I'm so sorry at least they'll be protected up in heaven My prayers will go towards you and your family and your gran and aunts dad was it?:'(
Yes Barney . Thank you so much. I need all the prayers I can get for my family and I. It's going to be a long coming up week/weekend.
I've lost a lot of ppl close to me lately too and to be honest, I haven't the slightest clue how to cope! What helps me a little is realizing that they wouldn't want me to be so sad all the time... And all the guilt I'm feeling wasn't what our relationships were about. If u come across anything that helps pls feel free to share w me!
Spartacus thank you. Yes there is a lot of bad stuff and people in this generation. It hurts to say goodbye but your right they will be in a better place
Thanks blaze. I been trien to talk to close family and friends of mine. I'm struggling atm but I know they will want to see me happy and keep looking forward but at same time it's hard especially when I have to worry for my mother as well for her mother dien.
I lost my gma last July and my gpa the yr before. Grams had drank herself silly and popped valium until she passed out w a cigarette in her hand and died in the fire... All while I was in another state, so I totally get how much that can hurt and how much u can beat yourself up over it! I couldnt talk to anybody in RL about it either, but my PIMD friends probably saved my life! We just gotta keep plugging on, and know that they will be watching over us and we still have to make them proud if u ever wanna talk, I'm here!
I'm so sorry. At least they wouldn't be in any pain anymore. I went crazy, after i got word of my grammy passing away. It's hard, especially when they could be so close together.Keep your head up. I'll be praying for their health.
Paryers to u and ur Family sweetie... I Just found out today my Grandmother had a stroke and theres damage to her heart now.... it truly sucks a$$ when its someone close to u that raised u.