I really need to vent, I don't want to sound like I'm seeking attention. I'm just under so much stress and anxiety lately, I'm going to break down because its tearing me apart. My family got evicted, so my dad stays with his parents and I'm staying with my moms. Here the past few days has been my dad and aunt getting in heated arguments with their dad. I really can't handle that, it scares me. My mom's mom wants me to stay up here, but my mom's sister has been on my case. Accusing me of doing drugs, selling my body and saying I need to learn some respect. She's even slapped me and took away my medication. I have PTSD, (post traumatic Stress Disorder), I'm on mood stabilizers, anxiety, and sleeping pills. My life is so filled with drama right now, I really can't take it. I just want to stop, I've tried everything to stop the fighting. I'm not looking for advice, feel free to give it I suppose. I'm not here for attention, people that know me, know that's not me. I just need to vent, I've cried the past two nights to sleep. I miss my mom. Why does this stuff always seem to happen to me? Call me Bad Luck Paige.
Why do you have PTSD? You know drugs can help.. My life was downhill after some shit happened.. Tried weed and now.. Fuck the problems ya know?
I was jump attacked by 3 girls. I was so severely beaten I had to have a lot of surgery and after that, idk I just started acting different. Nightmares, refusing to leave the house, my moods changed.
my inbox is open if you want to talk and i have some hotlines in my tumblr that maybe can help??? please don't do anything rash alright, and stay safe!!
You can give me your stuff Chloe I kid.. Oh that's bad.. But if your parents disrespect you.. Simply do what I'm doing now, they're now ex parents, go live with a friend.. And just try weed .-. All your problems will vanquish! For like a few hours ._. And you will be happy during those hours
Im so sorry to hear about the conflict that has taken residence in your life at the moment not to sound cliche but just keep your head up and talk to those who surround you with positiveness they are the ones who will get you thru this rough patch in your life all the best wishes to you and your family
i feel like some of you aren't really qualified to talk because a) you unknowingly and deny cyber bullying people online or b) will upset them by doing things subconsciously so honestly?? don't say you'll help because you feel like it help because you really do want to help this person and actually understand and listen to them
Thanks for the help guys. But the conflict with my dad, aunt and their dad dates back to before I was even born. The being evicted thing, it hurts. I grew up in that house, a lot of good times are in that house. But mom has us one in the same area so it's not so bad. It's just staying up here. The PTSD is a bitch. I have good days, I have bad days and I have horrible days. Like today, I feel depressed and like I don't want to do anything. Just be left alone and feel like crying. People say, "come to me when you need to talk," but how will that help when I have nothing to talk about? I'm just in a mood because I woke up that way, medication just mellows it out and me as well. It works but its not going to change my mood the second it goes down my throat. Ugh. Idk what to do anymore.
I hear about this more and more, cyber bullying real life bullying . I have never seen or heard of it in black or Hispanic communities. People just don't go around jumping people on the street it's just nuts to hear about this more and more. I can't possibly relate someone messed with me I held my own fought back I didn't instigate them tease or give an open invitation for them to do something to me. I can't understand it but I do see a trend in the Caucasian community which makes me a Spanish born male very sad to see my son who's 7 growing into a world like this. It's hard Paige, I can almost feel the anxiety through your words my suggestion is pray, pray for piece in your mind and in your heart.. If you need to talk to a big brother type pm me. The struggle is a struggle but... You don't have to be alone in it.... Morris
It's just some days are so hard for me to get out of bed, not because of depression. PTSD has me so fucked up, I can't go outside without thinking my jump attack will happen again. Anxiety attacks have happened to where my heart beat was fast and my hands were shaky. I try to hold it all in because I have more problems than I've really listed in the beginning of my thread. Nobody knows about all of them, well my mom does. My boyfriend knows of my PTSD and supports me on my bad days. He works hard to cheer me up, I'm crying because I'm sad and then I'm tearing up again hearing him call me beautiful. I'm tearing up now. In my real life, I have no friends except for the one I text because she moved. I've cut myself and I can't go back down that road again. I've had to get my stomach pumped from trying to overdose. I used to be bulimic, I'm 5"1'. I'm currently 111 pounds, my lowest was 99. I got treated but because of it, I think it's what's made me a little more insecure. I haven't looked in the mirror in so long, I have no clue if my face is still the same before my attack or if its changed. I'm terrified of mirrors, bathrooms and McDonald's. I literally see myself as a monster. Not someone without feelings, but I feel like my flesh is off my face, like a literal monster. Sorry, if this too much or too personal. I just, I just don't know anymore.
Take a seat next to google and have a look whether you are fortunate to live in area with good community mental health teams. The sort of support available varies depending on where you live, there may be free day-to-day support if you're very lucky, but sporting activities and/or weekly group discussion groups is certainly not out the norm. I have nothing but high praise for the mental health services in my area. They have helped somebody dear to me get back on their own two feet. Provided a way for him to meet new people. Offered a daily respite from his troubles as well as well being his gateway to a world of newer and happier friendships and connections. It also might be worth another visit to your general practitioner or psychiatrist and discussing your concerns on your next your medication review. Or possibly sooner. Psychological treatment alongside pharmaceutical treatment is becoming more common in certain parts of the world. Consider asking your doctor what sort of therapy you could be referred to and whether your care plan needs revising. I know CBT has a favorable efficacy rate for Bulimia. And there are other psychological interventions with variable rates of success for different anxiety disorders. Your doctor will know best which an if these treatments may help. The important thing is. You need not feel alone. There is a lot of help available. I've mentioned two avenues already. I applaud you for creating this thread. As it suggests to me that you may in a position to accept it. Good luck.
Let me start off by saying I'm sorry you're dealing with so much. It's heartbreaking and a lot on anyone to be evicted and to top it off indeed of being in a less stressful environment it sounds worse than what was home. Secondly, please don't learn to the idiots saying try weed. If you don't live in a state where you can get a medical marijuana card stay away from it. Do check into mental help you may be able to get through your local health department. For time being there are other natural over the counter things you can buy that may help until you can get your medication back. Just look into natural supplements for the problems you have. If you need someone to write my inbox is open.