Hello forums people... I have enough of all this. I have to make some apologizes to a lot of you. I'd ask you to read in respect, or to ignore. Thanks. The reason I feel the need to apologize is because I am not living in peace with my past behaviors. I've lied, I've been a jerk, a rude person, and that is not the real me. What I did is not acceptable, and that's why I want to say sorry. Why all of this? Because since I was 13 years old, I hated myself. I've hoped to be someone else, someone that would be cool. I couldn't do it in real life, which made me hate myself even more. On top of that, I was bullied every single day. The school did nothing when I finally had the balls to tell them about my condition. My parents didn't believe me when I told them how I felt. I decided to meet the school's psychologist. He ended up with the conclusion that I suffered of an ADHD, but he said that me being bullied had no repercussion, that I was only at a stage of my life where my hormones were not balanced, which caused me to feel bad. I was diagnosed with depression only when I ended up laying on a hospital bed after I tried to commit suicide. I insisted to keep this secret because I was ashamed, not that I committed such a horrible thing, but because I failed. So I started hating myself even more. Then I started playing PIMD. I had the opportunity that I always wanted. I could be someone else. I could hide the skinny, not so beautiful, socially awkward teen I was to become a totally different person. So I lied. I actually lied about too many things. Then I started being a complete asshole to people who didn't deserved such a bad treatment. And I hated myself even more. I am not that person. In reality, I am a shy person, I wouldn't dare to be a jerk unless someone really pisses me off, and that is actually pretty rare. Now I am not seeking for pity or any things that would make you want to like me. I understand if most of you keep hating me, but what I want is to free myself of a personality that isn't mine. I want to be myself, the same person who joined PIMD some years ago. I understood that it's not by creating someone I'm not that I'll like myself and overcome my problems. I hope that at least you'll give me a chance to start again, and to burry my past mistakes to be a better person. If you're gonna hate me, please refrain from commenting, why would you waste time on me if you hate me that much. To everyone I offended, please accept my sincere apologizes. Thank you very much.
Hopefully the communities sees the sincerity I do. But I fear people will say"same as always" Keep your head up.
I have had so not pleasant experiences with you, and seeing things on forums. I am a strong believer that people do change, but I also believe people say what they want online to get others to like them and fake apologies left and right. I have to say, I do see sincerity in this thread. I feel you owe it to no one to tell your life story though. If people are not willing to let small things go, that is on them. As you said you did this to "free" yourself though, and I think it was a great thread. I do not hold grudges, nor do I let people's actions speak for the person they are, because we have all done something is life that we are not proud of. Best of luck to you.
I have not had any run ins with you that Ivan remember, I do feel the sincerity of your apology when I read this. It is a touching story and I am sorry you had to go through all of that. Life is not always easy for anyone and the people you see everyday that are considered cool are sometimes the people with the most insecurities as well. Living life how YOU want to live is the only way you can be happy. It is easier said than done I do know this from experience. I use PimD to get away from the stress of reality such as divorce bills and the ever so dreaded daily cleaning after my girls have completely destroyed my house. Being able to come onto forums such as you have done an open up to the whole community in sharing about your life is worthy of respect. I give you my respect because I certainly do not have the courage to tell my life story knowing the possibilities of all the negative people that prey on the "weak". I do not consider you to be a weak person. I hope by you coming out and giving this apology to all of the people you feel you have done wrong to does make you feel free of the burden you have been carrying. Best of luck to you
I'm not going to write a long, sentimental paragraph because that's not my thing. But it would take guts to write this. You're a good man, not without flaws, but a great person to know. My respect
I can see why it's tempting to create a new persona online and you aren't the first and certainly won't be the last to have done it. You'd probably find that most people aren't as confident as they may come across on here. Personally, I work on the principle that if people don't like me then they can **** off, I ain't changing who I am Enjoy being yourself and good luck.
As I'm sure you can imagine, I dislike you for the things you've posted on here. However, I understand why people feel the need to be what they aren't, here. It isn't a requirement to let all these people know who you are in real life. It's a place to be who you want (which is why, if you haven't noticed, I tend to give the people labelled "fake", "liar", or "fake ass bitch" second chances). People do it for many reasons... To hide something they dislike about themselves, to possibly avoid meeting someone they know in real life, to flat out just wanting to be liked more than they are in real life. On another hand, I also do not think this justifies the way you acted. But overall, I'm happy you made this, and I'm with Jenni and Justin. I can see you meant this. There's a certain underlying superficial tone that you'll notice If you evaluate other players' apologies. I don't see that here. I certainly hope people don't give you any trouble for this, especially after I didn't, when I normally do.
Now, sweetie, I've never actually seen the worst of you, mainly because I'm inactive a lot (hue) , but, knowing you, I'm a hundred percent certain that you mean every single word you've typed and I'm glad some people are decent enough to see it, and accept your apology. You're a wonderful person Mr. X, you can suck a baby's slobbering thumb