I reached in my hand under the pillow and grabbed it, my iPhone was in perfect condition, no scratch, no crack and no sign of a broken phone. I pressed the home button as I changed my position facing the wall on the right. There were six messages and one missed call. Three messages from David and one missed call, two from Jane and one from Jack Collins. A tear dropped on my cheek and I quickly wiped it away. Of course they would still be texting me, they didn't know I saw them, but I had to be strong, 'cause everything's gonna be fine. I'll move on and forget about it. I opened my messages and started with David's. First message: Good morning, love. How was your sleep? Can I visit you today? Second message: Never mind, I've got something to do. Mind seeing you tomorrow? Let's go to the beach, yeah? Third message: On the second thought, never mind. How about the park near your house? See you then, tomorrow. I love you Leanne, don't you ever forget that. See you baby. I scoffed as I read all the three messages. It was heartbreaking and stupid and idiotic and all lies and... I can't think anymore. I went back to the messages and clicked on Jane's. First message: Lee, I'm coming over later at 10! See you. xx Second message: Lee, I'm sorry I can't come! Mom asked me to go see nana today. I'll see you tomorrow or the day after that. FaceTime me later when you're awake. Love you. x More tears came streaming down, I wiped them away and opened Jack's message. He was my childhood friend who moved to somewhere miles away just a year ago. I thought he forgot about me though. Message: Coming over at noon! =) I can't wait to see you, Bubbles. I smiled at the nickname, somehow Jack always made me feel happy. He always brightened up my mood whenever I was down. He was likes brother to me. I took a deep breath and called David. You can't just expect me to hang around and still keep the relationship together when I was falling apart. If there was a reason why he and Jane did that, I don't care. Cheating is cheating, nothing will change that fact. It rang three times and then he answered. "Morning babe." His voice was deep and sexy, the voice that always gave you goosebumps. I shook my head trying to get off his image out of my mind. I was imagining his chestnut colored hair with a side fringe on the right and his deep emerald eyes, his kissable lips and perfect rounded face. "We need to talk." Finally words came out of my mouth. I could feel him smirk at the other side of the line, "What's it about?" I began to remember everything about the past and the next thing I knew I was uncontrollably crying my eyes out, but I took a deep breath and calmed myself, I smiled a painful smile and whispered on the other line the three word I never thought I would hear coming from myself... Let's break up.
read it, Boo. Great. Yes. I think her username was TheBrokenLights or the other one. I can't remember really. I've been gone for too long.
☆ Chapter Threem (P1) If only I could turn back time, I would have never felt that way. Why am I the only one suffering from all that? What exactly did I do wrong that everything seemed to be falling apart? My best friend, boyfriend, my family and even my strength. Five more days until school starts, I had to face the world again. No matter how much I tried to shut myself, life kept finding me. But I wasn't living anymore, I was just surviving. This isn't the first time it happened, my depression was trying to drown me. Even before I met David and Jane, I was the loneliest little girl anyone could ever know. I never lived with mum and dad until I was eight, I never even thought about the fact that I had parents, but then they took me away from grandma and grandpa by force and then grandpa died shortly after I left, and they didn't let me visit the funeral. Grandpa was lonely, and so was grandma that died after a month then. History just kept on repeating itself. For the second time in my life, I felt unwanted, rejected, neglected, and god knows what else. I was paranoid. My greatest fear was being left alone. And I'm afraid that that was the start of my life going downhill. Nana was right, love never lasts. But I was a child, how could I know what I was talking about? I argued with her countless of times that there were always happy endings, and that we would find our Prince Charming. How stupid, it shattered in just a blink of an eye as I saw the two most trusted people in my life, kissing passionately under the moonlight. Thinking about it made me want to hurl. I laid thoughtlessly on my bed, hugging all my pillows and covering myself under the blanket. My tears wouldn't just stop flowing. It continuously flowed like the river, as my sheets were already drenched. I was to weak to stand up and change it and even so with food. I didn't have any appetite, especially my parents downstairs. It just so happens that I saw something that broke my heart all over again. As I was walking down the stairs earlier after my conversation with David, I saw mum and dad in the study room, having their secret fight. "Who is she?" My mum held my dad's phone in front of his face, looking so jealous and mad. Her fair white skin and so with my dad's were already starting to wrinkle, but for the age of 48, they still looked youthful. "It is none of your business." Dad was composed and calm, he looked straight into the eyes of mum hoping she would stop the ruckus. "WHO IS SHE?" Jealousy has driven her mad, she was crying non stop as she hit Dad's chest countless of time, allowing the phone to fall off. "Why are you doing this to me?" "I think it's time for us to get a divorce, if we live like this, we can't move on." My dad looked sorrowful, it was clearly written on his face that he is still in love with mum and is pained to see her like that. Mum was shaking her head, denying the fact that dad had just offered a divorce. "No, Ray, don't leave me. Please," she was on her knees holding my dad's hands. "Where did we go wrong?" Dad patted mum's back and took a deep breath, "When I found out Leanne isn't my daughter." I broke down and ran as fast as I could inside my room, I locked myself up again and cried, that was the only thing left to do. Cry. Everything is a mess, isn't it? Life couldn't get any BETTER. I thought David's words hurt me the most but dad's words left a deep scar in my heart and on my mind. And there I thought I still had my dad to rely on, we were close as glue until everything started to change with mum and him. It made total sense. I was unloved by many by now. If only, I didn't live. Yeah, if only...
God, I'm here. I'm alright, don't fret, pretties, enjoy your New Year. I hope you all have a great one, all my .