I went back upstairs and fell asleep shortly after, I figured I could sleep on the bus but I wasn't thrilled about being woken up. It felt like I had just gone to bed when she came in all cheerful, I growled as I got up, I took my clothes in the bathroom and slowly got dressed. I went back in my room to put my pajamas into my bag and grabbed my purse. I went downstairs and saw Aaron and Ethan already on the couch, I sat down in the chair across from them not paying them any attention. I really didn't want to spend my money on someone here, I didn't know what anyone liked to be honest, it wasn't that I was a 'grinch' and wanted to buy stuff for me but what if they didn't like what I got and threw it away? That's always been my biggest fear when it came to a birthday or holiday and for me not to know anyone that well added to the fear even more. I could buy Aaron or Kris something but I don't know shirt sizes on anyone if I got the wrong size then I would have to say that I guessed and it would look bad. The bus pulled up to the door, it wasn't what I expected, not the big yellow school bus but one of those greyhound type busses. Aaron and Ethan got on the bus as I slowly followed, Kris was shortly after and like said I sat beside Aaron all the way in the back. Ethan sat in front of us next to Ashley and Ashlynn sat beside her in the row over, Ashley then moved to sit with Ashlynn when the last boy got on, must have been Tyler I figured but I couldn't keep up with names. Tyler had short red hair, brown eyes and pale skin, in a way he reminded me of Shaggy from Scooby-Doo, that would be his new nickname for me. I took out my MP3 player and started listening to music, I needed to just escape the real world and listen to my music world, I blasted the music and jammed out, I didn't care that Aaron was laughing or if everyone was watching I was having fun. "Why?" Aaron asked me laughing, "loosen up, will ya?" I replied grumpily, he slanted his face, "sorry, I don't know how." I rolled my eyes, "stop being so serious. Lighten up." He laughed at me but I didn't see why, I wasn't being funny, I wasn't even trying to be remotely funny at the slightest but he let out a chuckle through his lightly pink lips. "How come you haven't smiled or laughed since you've been here, Breez?" I wanted to clock him across the head with a club like they do in cartoons, they magically pull out a club and jump 50 feet up and hit a person in the head, I hated being called 'Breez' but I let slide for this first time. "I am perfectly content in my place of emotional status. However, I don't choose to express my contentness across my face for, I have no reason to share it with anyone. If they find what I do and or say amusing it is their choice to laugh or smile, not mine." He gave me a amused mixed with an impressed look, "miss priss and proper are we this morning?" I shook my head no, "if I was ' priss and proper' my name would be Jessica and I would be flirting with everyone. I'm Breezy, I'm me and I'm being me, whatever that is." He chuckled, "interesting, amusing, and a beautiful mystery." My eyes widened in shock and my head slanted to the left, looking at him, did he just call me 'beautiful' ? I knew he had better not, he was gonna make me fly off my rocker, "boy, you're crazy. You callin' me beautiful, you're on some LSD cause you're trippin'." He laughed in response to hearing the sass pour out of my voice as I spoke, "you take a compliment as if I just insulted you." " so beautiful is a compliment?" I asked being more serious than sassy, his face growing confused, "you've never been called beautiful? No one?" I shrugged my shoulders, "should I have been?" A smile grew on his face, "have you looked in the mirror lately? That reflection, that reflection looking back at you is beautiful and to me the real thing close up is more beautiful than the reflection, it's tangible, it's real and it's a beauty out of this world." I scoffed at him, "don't lie to me. I'm me, I don't see anyone having a crush on me, getting butterflies from my smile, thinking of me before bed, smile at their cell phone from me, I'm not extraordinary or nothing special." He smiled again, "because they're in the presence of a beautiful girl, inside to out." I shrugged him off, not because I thought I was ugly, I just thought he was lying to me and was calling me beautiful just to get something started with me. "Well, thanks for the compliment then," he smiled at me with hope overflowing his eyes that I would smile back the same way he was, I remained with my content face, my mouth not open, no sign of a smile of coming from my lips like they was superglued shut, but something in me hurt to see the hope in his eyes fading, I slanted my lips to the left and gave him eyes that said "oh well, thanks for trying" and a hopeful grin grew on his face.
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I sat in the seat leaning back, knees on the back of the seat in front of me listening to Snow Patrol; Chasing Cars. It was my favorite song, I loved it, I sat thinking of the first time I smiled, I had just turned 14 and the next day I got my boyfriend, I was the happiest girl in the world, I was dating my best friend. The happiness, love, trust and friendship quickly faded, drama started happening the more people knew about us, things spiraled out of control so horribly that it cost my trust for him, leaving us to be a on/off thing every week. If we wasn't breaking up we was either making up or arguing, things finally changed a month later and settled down, but ever since I have never smiled, never been ecstatically happy. I wasn't just a grumpy person always, I was happy, smile or not I was happy. Afraid of my happiness being crushed like everything else had, I kept my emotions to myself, well the ones I liked mostly. Was it easy to make me smile? Not really, I was hard to break like that, no I didn't move a single jaw muscle when people tried to make me laugh or smile, that got old and fast. I didn't smile even at my favorite things, like animals, songs or movies, I stayed well content. The bus pulled up to a huge white factory like building, we got out and followed mrs. Greene inside, we was greeted by a rough, husky man in 40's but his untrimmed beard made him look 80, he told us about what they do to help the homeless and how their place works. Mrs. Greene donated the bags of canned foods and we went on our way to the mall, Aaron was like a dog at the park, I rolled my eyes at his excited-ness, "why aren't you excited?" Looking at me, "because, it's just a place to buy clothes. Calm down." He looked like I broke his happiness, I sat back and huffed. "You're a party pooper, you know that?" I laughed at him, "all the time, it's my job" he laughed with me but I just shrugged, the bus turned into the underground parking lot, I sat unamused. Aaron smirked at me, "wanna buy just ourselves stuff?" I scoffed, "I already planned that, sadly you're the only one tolerable and want to be around me." He chuckled, "only me?! I'm lucky, I like that though." I crossed my arms, "yeah, well get used to it. Cause I know I can't." He chuckled as he shifted in his seat ready to get out, "why can't you get used to it? Am I like your first friend or something?" Shook my head, "no, well sorta, like I said earlier, you're tolerable." The bus parked, mrs. Greene stood up to lecture us, she said for us to pair up with a buddy and stay with them. Aaron locked his arm around mine, I rolled my eyes as she mentioned buying one person something but I didn't see the point, if they didn't like it they would take it back, it seemed foolish of me to even bother with that. Aaron and I walked off the bus with locked arms, "I'm not a toddler you know, you can let go." I muttered sternly, he looked at me with a crooked grin, "oh.. Sorry." He sighed, we made our way through the over-populated crowd of people to a few stores, going to only our favorites. I picked up some much needed clothes and a few extra things, Aaron stopped to buy a SnapBack and a coffee from Starbucks, I got one as well then we went off to eat. "So, are you having fun?" He asked feeling hopeful in his grin I would give a tiny smile that I was indeed having fun, I nodded my head yes but managed no smile or laugh of any kind. Aaron stood in line for the pizza place and I stood in line for Japanese, before we spilt up Aaron offered to carry my bags for me after seeing me struggle. He said he would save me a seat at a table and to just look for him, I figured his group of 'friends' would sit with us, just what I needed, to flip a table at him and be thrown out.