I stare blankly at the large white wall that stands tall, and look down at the paint buckets around me. I... All my life, I've heard words. Nothing but boring, long and smart words. These words have turned me into a silent character, a character without words to say now. Earlier I finally started getting fed up with being a nobody. I'm black and white, nothing more but a silent film character, looking at black and white. The wall could be red, or green when it actually has color, but it's black and white in my world. I purse my lips, looking at the brushes, and pick one up, and look down at the paint. I open a can up, and the color jumps at me, a brilliant shade of green was like a gem in the room. I dip the brush in it, and I stand on my stool, starting with a green I. Finally cutting that stupid barrier that held me back. I open up the other cans, painting more words, color finally filling my wall, filling the gaping hole in my heart that longed for change. That longed for color, the color I couldn't have. The more colors I used, I could become real, and begin to be like everyone else. Have color like them. I was a boring grey character all because I only knew how to be different, I just knew how to be boring and colorless. I couldn't be eccentric, or have feelings, I was as blank as a wall. Despite my happiness, I could never smile. A smile could never bleed through this thick unhappy face. I decorate the wall with the words I have been called all my life, panting it in a sick black all around my other colorful words. I sign my name at the bottom in red. I look at my work with that same blank stare. I reach to the table No one could ever call me boring, lame, too smart or colorless. Now they don't have a right to do that. I pick up the razor that sat on my black garden table, sitting down and pulled up my sleeve. I traced, thinking. My favorite color was red, and I wondered... As the blade sliced through my skin, I finally saw the true color in me. It was red, Yes!—A ruby red leaked from my arm... I Am Not Colorless... Silent character... Mariza ------------ Sorry if it's shitty. I'm really fucking tired because it's like three A.M.