Ian blinked, watching me intently. I was shaking slightly, but not from the cold temperature outside: even though tiny snowflakes drifted down from the grey sky, and I wasn't wearing a jacket, my nerves were the only factor in my shivering. It didn't surprise me how much time had passed- winter was approaching quickly. "Alright… what did you want to talk about?" he asked. It took a moment for me to respond as I attempted to form the sentence in my head before I spoke it into existence. Instead, I lowered my head, kicking at the ground, trying to figure out what to say. I felt his hand gently cup my cheek, and I instinctively leaned into it; the feeling was so warm, so familiar… It took a lot for me to pull away. "I wanted to talk about us." I said, barely aware that I was speaking. "Yeah…?" he coaxed, indicating that I continue. I felt another fit of shivering attack my body, and I clenched my hands, trying to at least stand up straight. "Ian… ever since I met you, my life changed so much… so quickly. I changed…" I said, feeling my gaze lower to the ground again. I didn't bother to look up again; I couldn't bring myself to look at him. "I-I don't think it's for the best either…" I barely heard his breath hitch up over the wind, but the sound was there. Silence fell between the both of us, and I felt a lump slowly rising up in my throat. "You have to do this Persephone… it's better for the both of you." I thought bitterly. We both spoke up at the same time. "What are you saying…?" "I can't be with you anymore." I whispered. The minute I said it, I instantly felt guilt and regret flood my mind. Finally looking up, I instantly regretted that too: Ian was frozen in shock. I thought you couldn't see somebody's heart breaking, but it was plain on his face. The usual happy, carefree glint in his eye that was present whenever he was with me dimmed significantly- until it wasn't there anymore. I desperately wanted to take it back, to throw my arms around him and apologize, beg him to forgive me and promise I wouldn't ever do something so rash. Instead I stood still, my vision blurry with tears. Ian didn't say anything, but his eyes spoke volumes. They were pleading one word: "Why?" "I… I don't want to change against my will, Ian… I don't want more people to get hurt because of me… especially you." I spoke quietly, turning away. "Persephone, wait… I"- he called, his voice the weakest I've ever heard it. I froze in my tracks, listening closely, hoping he'd finally say what I was dreaming he would for the past few weeks. That alone would send me running back; and that was exactly what I wanted to do. Instead, he exhaled, no more words escaping him. I couldn't stand it anymore, and bolted from the yard. "I'm sorry…" I muttered, skidding over freshly frozen patches of ice on the sidewalk, running up to my house. I burst inside, not bothering to close the door, collapsing at the foot of the stairs. I gasped, finally not holding back, allowing the tears that were bordering my eyes to spill over in torrents. Katze meowed, padding over to me worriedly, purring- but not even she could comfort me. I pressed my face into my hands, letting loose the biggest wail I could muster, trying to release at least some of the despair I was feeling. But all the tears in the world wouldn't even accomplish that. "I'm s-so sorry…!" ------------------------------------------------------- Short update. Please don't hate me… I hated writing this part.
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