-Ari's POV- I rolled up my sleeves, looking at the lines on my right arm, the butterfly on my left. All scars... I pulled up my shirt, looking at the words I had carved into myself. I hated who I was, who was at my school, who had hurt me... I hated who had left me to deal with people I held my arms over my stomach, looking down, not daring to look up in case I saw him. It had been six months since Alex died... I haven't uttered a single word. I always had a piece of paper and a pen, for the important talks. ' FREAK!' 'Weirdo!' 'Loner' 'The crazy house called, they're looking for you shorty!' I bit my lip, twirling the sharp screw in my hand. I had never been so alone, so lost. Doctors had diagnosed me with anxiety and schizophrenia... I didn't care, I wanted to be free, not the target of insults and harm. I walked to our spot, sitting down and crying freely. I re-traced the butterfly on my wrist, making sure it stood out. I envied butterflies, so free, pure and beautiful. I wished for my life to end as usual, mouthing the words. 'Oh Ari, what have you been reduced to? I thought you were stronger than that...' I opened my eyes and jumped, unaware that he'd be so close... I waved Alex away, this was the second time he came to me, the first when I stopped talking. 'Ari, Ari look at me, you have to stop, you don't want to join me here, it's dark and there's pain everywhere... The other, the other spirits haven't moved on Ari, I can't move on if you're like this sweetheart...' I felt warm hands against my face. 'You're not real Alex, you're dead... This is just a mental thing...' The words ran through my head but never got past my lips. I reached into my pocket and pulled out a little blue pill, swallowing it quickly. Alex faded with a hurt look on his face, I cried and cried, flinching at the sound of the bell, not caring when a teacher came and retrieved me as usual... I missed him, I lost half of myself.
-Ari's POV- The next morning I woke up sore and depressed. "I really need to get rid of that picture..." I yawned as I rubbed my wrist, being careful not to re-open the fresh cuts. I swung my feet out of the bed and looked at my reflection. I laughed at the sight of my face, bedraggled and 'innocent'... I run a hand through my tatty, knotted hair, sighing deeply. The mental conditions had calmed down a little, they weren't as bad after moving away from everything I'd ever known... As soon as I hit high school I decided for it to be a fresh start... No one there knew me or my past. I threw on my weekend clothes and logged onto my laptop, realizing I didn't get out of my 'social site' account 2 New Messages, 5 New Notifications, 0 New Friend Requests I sigh and check my notifications first, most of them being game requests and one being that someone commented on a photo I put up months ago... I paid no attention to it. I clicked open my messages, smiling at the oldest one. Hey Woofid, a bunch of us were wondering what you were planning to do for mess up day? You always come up with the best stuff bubs. KissesAndKittens, Ches, Dalla, Jade and Lia xxoox I grin. Mess up day! The whole of year 10 was able to roam around the school and mess up over the span of a long weekend. Last year I gave advice to the year before and they half-took it... I told them to super-glue embarrassing pictures of other year 10s around the school. Instead they super-super glued porn everywhere... Weird yes... I opened the next one mindlessly and frowned, reading that it was sent ten minutes ago... Hey Ars... I need a place to crash for a few nights... Yes I know your mothers NEVER home on weekends, so you can't ask her permission, unless that's changed since we split... But I was wondering if your place is available? I know you hate me but Ben kicked me out for back chatting... Please reply before 7ish... -Lachlan I looked at the time, and shook my head. I turned back to the screen and typed quickly, biting my lip gently. You can stay as long as you need, mums never home now... Work stuff... But 1. I'm not picking you up from your place, my cars busted 2. You're sleeping on the couch or the floor, your call - Ari I brushed my hair as I waited for a reply, wincing as the brush pulled on the knots. The message tone sounded and I read it. Be there in 5, and I bet I could negotiate •_~ -Lachlan I facepalmed, and got out of my room, straightening out the house a little, locating the food money mum left and setting some aside for pizza. I still remembered Alex's favorite pizza, pepperoni with anchovies and olives. He was a strange kid... Lachlan was way more tame, third guy I had dated after Alex died. Lachlan loved sausage and cheese, while I loved margarita cheese. Lucifer rubbed up against my legs, mewling, telling me in his own way that he wanted food. I opened a can of kitten food for him and poured it in his bowl in the laundry. Then Lachlan arrived, knocking then walking in. Like he always used to
This story made me cry. Her love for Alex was so strong, thy it became unbearable for her when be died. this reminded me of a special someone in my life, and I couldn't help but cry. I know how she feels. Great story so far, can't wait for the next update. Bump!
He came in with his bag over his shoulder, smiling happily. I warily hugged him, being careful not to press my wrists to hard against him. "Thanks Ari, you know how bad Ben is... How are you?" He smiled half heartedly, watching my every move, like he still owned me. "Fine, fine... Just a little tired still..." I sighed, causing Lachlan to pounce on me and pull up my sleeves. He sighed and shook his head. "Ari! Why the hell would you still do this! You promised to stop, you promised..." He looked into my eyes, causing me to remember. I shook my head. "You, just shut up! Just choose the floor or couch and unpack your crap!" I turned away and pulled out my fabric strips, wrapping them around my wrists carefully and fastening them with safety pins. "Sleeping on the floor of your room!" I rolled my eyes and looked at the time. 6:48 I had slept for hours... I walked up to my room and saw Lachlan admiring my new drawings and bomb-songs. He smiled at the small photo-strip of us goofing off on an excursion we had last year for drama, we had found a photo booth during the interlude. I smiled a little, looking at the five small pictures of us laughing like lunatics. "You okay with ordering pizza Locky? We can go half-half?" I run a hand through my hair. That was a reflex action for me... It sucked. "Yeah, sau-" "Sausage and cheese, I remember" I barely smile and go call up the pizza place. -Lachlans POV- It felt great to be back in her room. I never thought I'd be in here again, after all the hurt I put her through, all the lies Karina and Chester had made up about my poor Ari... I knew I shouldn't of done what I did, but, well... I was with her fourish months... She wasn't frigid, so I asked her to be a little risky, she got a tiiiiiiiny bit risky, but not the full on stuff I wanted. After I told Chester she didn't go all the way with me on our four months, he simply said 'Dump her, she's too short and childish and blah...' and I stupidly took his advice. I got two of the people who gave her most shit (Which I didn't know at the time) to break up with her for me... Stupid mistake. I knocked on Ari's door, at midnight like I usually did, just to be mysterious. I waited for her to answer, which she did in seconds, wrapping her arms around my neck, embracing me strongly, nuzzling my neck slightly. I smiled and wrapped My arms around her waist, fitting perfectly with her curves, kissing the top of her head. "C'mon in Locky" She beamed, taking my hand and leading me inside. Her lounge smelt of incense, as usual. Ari was kinda spiritual, which is incredibly cute. We cuddled up and watched 'My girl' until she looked into my eyes. "Shall we go to bed? I'm tired" she mumbles, burying her face in my chest. I picked her up and carried her effortlessly into her room, throwing her onto her bed and jumped next to her. She squealed as she was launched a few inches off the bed. God I love her. "Lachlan, it's not polite to enter someone's bed with shoes on" She giggled, tapping my nose. I kicked off my shoes and pulled off my socks as un-awkwardly as possible, which was still pretty awkward. She kissed me gently, smiling and stroking my hair. I had dreams of what happened next for a long, long time.
Sorry I haven't updated for a little bit, I've been insanely busy... -Ari's POV- The pizza finally arrived. Lachlan went to the door while I organized his bed a little bit. He walked into the room with the pizza box and sat on my bed with me. I smiled faintly at him as he opened the box and took a slice, devouring it in seconds. I wolfed down some pizza and stood up. "Imma get my pjs on, you can either stay in here while I change in a different room, or get out for a few seconds." I raise an eyebrow at him, grabbing my pjs out from under my pillow. "Aww... Can't I stay here and you stay too?" His cheeky grin flashed up at me and his strange eyes twinkled with hope. His eyes are what drew me in. "No way Muddy," I smirked, using the nickname I gave him a long time ago. He was mud-eyed, one brightest blue, one greeny-gold, I found it so mysterious and lovable. "You, don't own me anymore, therefore I do not get changed in front of you." I smile and walk to my bathroom, changing quickly. As I walked back to my room I ran my fingers across the wall of the hallway, singing softly. I was a little girl, alone in my little world, who dreamed of a little home for me... I played pretend beneath the trees and fed my house guests sparkling leaves, I laughed in my pretty bed of green... I had a dream, that I could fly from the highest swing I had a dream... The second I walked into my room, Lachlan pounced on me, drawing me close and tilting my head towards his face. His voice cooed me, twisting some of the song to fit us. We took long walks in the dark, through the woods grown near the park, we always knew, who we'd be. Then he kissed me, not forcefully, but not overly soft. Warmth rushed through me, making me relax and return the kiss a little. I fluttered my eyes closed, starting to enjoy the long-buried feeling. Then the warmth hit my cuts. The stinging, burning, itching feeling consumed the warmth, causing me to jerk back and cry out, falling to my knees. I doubled over and rested my head on the smooth carpet. "Ari!" He dropped beside me, trying to un-bunch me, failing. "I-I-I'll be alright, may-AH!" another wave of pain shot through me, then stopped completely. Lachlan scooped me up and placed me on my now cold bed, pulling the covers over me then crawling in next to me, stroking my hair and cooing. I felt hollow, but complete.