love lost

There I was. Madly in love with the boy of my dreams! I only knew him for a short time but I already knew, I want him to be mine. Sadly he had a girlfriend and I really was jealous! I thought I would never get him and that he would stay with her forever. But one day when we were texting I said "oh I see you have a girlfriend" and he texted back "yeah but I kinda want to break up with her. She's more like a friend.... Not a girlfriend." On that day I had hope that I could get him but he also told me he didn't have the heart to break up with her. That made me lose some hope but still, he could be mine. We continued to talk everyday for hours! Then one day I told my friend that I like him. She told me he always talks about me, and she really meant always! So one day we were talking and we always told each other I love you. I could tell he meant as a friend though. Buy we would flirt and we were so much alike! One day we were flirting so much it was ridiculous... That ended up being the happiest day of my life. He broke up with his girlfriend and I asked him out. He said yes! And that night I went to bed with the biggest smile ever. The next day I found out he's 3 years older than me. I almost died I mean he's in high school and I'm in middle school. Time to be judged by society. But we got past that and we didn't care, we loved each other. We had a happy relationship even though he lived so far away. We made it work. I was hoping me and him would be together forever. We would video chat and laugh and smile, the only time I was truly happy was when I saw him. I cut myself one day because I hate myself and I was planning on killing myself. But my love talked me out of it and I'm grateful. Then out of the blue, "I think we should break up" I began to cry the most tears I had ever cried! I told him to never speak to me again, and he snapped! He swallowed a ton of pills so he could die! And if he died I shall die to! I took out a razor blade and held it to my wrist. I was ready to die for my love. But I just had to call him to see if he was alive. And he was and was puking up the pills. This made me throw the blade down and cry more and more and more! I cried all night long until I fell asleep at 9. The next day we texted all day and I only cried a couple times. We continued life and it was less than a week when he asked me out again. Immediately I said yes. But only an hour later he told me the other girl he loves is crying because we are together. Well he broke up with me again! This time I don't shed a single tear, but I die on the inside. And I realized my heart was broken. I lost my first love. I went into a deep depression and wanted to die. My friend always told me he doesn't deserve me. The truth is I don't deserve him. So I was sad at home and when around people I put on an act that I was happy. Everyday I would cut myself. I wanted to break things and just to stop being sad. I figured out a way I could do that, to kill myself. So that night I text him saying I needed him to know I loved him. And then, I killed myself. If I waited 5 seconds I would've gotten a text saying "will you go out with me again?"

 

It's starts off as a true story but the ending is fake....

 

Maybe I'll write a second part to it Im not sure. I'll ask my inspiration to it what I should do :3

 

I was gonna ask the guy I based the male character on to write the second part and he said no  I'm sorry I'll think of a way to update