Description: he was a monster, my night Monster--but he was gone, so I thought. He's back and he wants what he couldn't have in the beginning, me. I messed up in my Life and was more vulnerable than I've ever been. I couldn't even save myself. warning! The beginning is a bit dark! *intro* He kept my hands pinned back on the bed so I couldn't retaliate. His face was near mine and his breath smelled of cigarettes and liquor. "Don't you dare resist." he whispered near my ear. He placed his slobbery wet lips against my cheek and held it there. I shivered in disgust. There was no point in fighting it. He was stronger than me. More powerful. He could kill me if he wanted to but what purpose would that be? I kept my eyes closed and allowed it all to happen. No one could hear my screams. It was just me and him. He trailed a finger down m cheek toto the opening of my blouse babbling words I couldn't understand. But this wasn't the first tine this happened. No. This happened on the regular but I couldn't tell. He threatened to kill me and my family whenever he was sober. So I was trapped with fear in my veins and in my heart. He looked back into my eyes; his glazed with un-relentless desire that I did not want to experience. "you're my girl forever right?" I felt the scorching tears roll down my cheeks and looked away and nodded. But this was how I never wanted it to happen. This was what my lies and deception wove for me and even my cries could not be heard. But this was not the beginning.