Saturday...hate it, suppost to be the weekend, time off, no school. not for me, saturday school one of the worst things about private school the other is that its a Quaker school, for those of you dont know (which is probaly most people) Quakerism is a religion all to do with peace and non violence, im a very violent person....and very anti god, i have nothing againt him just...dont see how its possible, im one of thise people who needs proof for every thing. anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR sorry its a bit late January the 7th, i hate my life last night i hardly slept i sayed up till 3:30am mentaly wrighting out my new years resolutions....crying after each one, its the first time ive cryed since Last January, no lies, i hate crying it makes me feel week and stupid but when other people cry i admire them for it for the strenth to cry. When ive thought of all ten (even though you could roll them all into one theyre so similer) i just sat and cryed i turned on my bed side lamp and walked over to my shelfs my childhood teddy bear was stitting there i grabbed it and jumped back into my bed just in time to let out an explosion of tears, silent tears, too many to ever possibly cout but forever silent...i evently drifted off to sleep crying into her damp fur all night. i woke up this morning to a strange sound it was like a very hight pitched houver? it confused me it was 1:25 and i was still in bed trying to work out the strange noise when my mum nocked and came in, "the plumbers are here" what plumbers?!" "to fix the boiler, you cant have a shower today and all the taps are of, and so is the heating" i only notised when she said but i was freezing, my room like ice it was bloody January what was she thinking! "urgh, when are they leaving" "about 7:00" 7:00! "would you like some breckfast" "no, let me sleep!" "ok" she said smiling i eventaly got out of bed at 2:45 got dressed and whent down stairs at 3:30. I watched TV all day but being a wednesday in the afternoon there wasnt much for a 12 year old to watch...but i found somthing and snuggeld up on the sofa till i whent upstaris to bed at 10:15 but as always i lay in my bed all night awake, i listend to a bit of music checked my facebook page and then died of bordem at half past midnight, i think i fell asleep at like 3am as always i was gonna have a loooong lie in i know its not very interseting but itle get better when i go back to school, tell if i should carry on or not. thx